The scale moved for me

And luckily, it was in the right direction!  When I hopped on this morning, I was 1.7 pounds less than yesterday...Hoping that I am solidly in the 150's now!  woohoo!!! 

W2D1

Fastest run pace so far! 14:12...no land speed record, but the others were all 15 or above. :) and just shy of 2 miles (1.98) so I kept walking a little bit to make it two miles even :)

Frustrating weigh in today. Down just .3 pounds. But it's better than going up! I'm sticking with it being muscle gain and water retention, but if I don't drop next week, I will start watching calories too.

And I figured out today that I am 29% of the way to my goal of 30.6 pounds lost! Not too shabby for three weeks!

My chart after three weeks:

I'm having a love affair...

With kale. I just love that it doesn't lose it's texture no matter what you do to it. It's fabulous in soups, worked out ok as the "noodles" in my "lasagna" today. And I'm loving it baked in the oven as chips!

W1D3

Real feel of 20, but I learned from last run and dressed in light layers. The cold wind felt good :) 143 calories today!

I think this is the furthest in the program I've made it in a few years ;) I usually find an excuse by the third day.

Blah...

We are starting to add back in a few "good" carbs.  So last night I made some whole grain pasta with chicken, pesto, and broccoli.  It was delightful...but this morning I was up a pound and a half.  Not good.  Hopefully it is due to cycle timing and not to the carbs!  It really has me bummed...boo!

I finally got a +OPK this morning...so time to start the progesterone and see what happens!  Wish me luck!

W1D2

Well, I learned a couple of things on my run today... Wear less clothing than you think you need, and don't stuff yourself for dinner beforehand. Oops. :D

Obsession

What is it about me that makes it so that I'm only successful at something if I get obsessive about it?  I've been happily loading up my RSS feed with weight loss blogs, healthy food blogs, etc.  The one other time I was successful at losing weight and working out all the time, I was completely obsessed...until I got engaged, and then wedding planning became my obsession and I put some weight back on..oops!

So...I'm feeling doubly good about my current obsession...I clearly only have room for one in my life at a time...so if I'm obsessing over being healthy, its seems to be helping me NOT to obsess over TTC #2.  Win win!

I did it!!

It was unseasonably warm tonight and the rain held off... So after putting the munchkin to bed, I immediately changed clothes, grabbed the dog, and hit the pavement.

Day one week one done! 1.6 miles and 149 calories burned.
I hope the weather continues to be decent for a while!!

Confession time

I want to be a runner. 

There, I've said it. 

I'm secretly envious of those people that can call themselves that. 

Once upon a time I did the couch to 5K program and then transitioned inside to a treadmill when the weather got crappy and would do it for 45 min to an hour, every day.  But I never felt like a "runner".  I want to be one of those people happily running outside, in any kind of weather, because they WANT to.  Because it makes them feel good. 

I have a million excuses for why I haven't started running.  Weather, we live on top of a huge hill, my knees are a disaster, I don't have good headphones...yeah...I have a million lame excuses.

I'm struggling right now with the weather one..and a biggie...that I'm trying to get pregnant and if my last pregnancy is a good indicator, I'm going to have to shut down physical activity pretty quickly.  Last time I couldn't even vacuum without bleeding or having contractions. 

But...it could take a long time to get pregnant....and every bit of running, dieting, changing eating habits, etc is NOT going to be for naught. 

Every pound I lose before getting pregnant is one less pound I will have to lose afterwards to get to my goal weight. 

And maybe being in better shape this time will help my body handle the physical stresses of pregnancy... 

And with every BFN I get, I can get one month further along in my resolve to be healthier and to be a better role model for my son. 

So...tonight I will restart the couch to 5K program....

...if its not raining ;) 

Two weeks down

Two week weigh in and I am down 7.6 pounds!  I weighed in at exactly 160.0.  I was a little sad that I didn't break into the 150's, but that's probably a good thing so that little fluctuations don't bump me back up and make me sad :) 

This weekend was pretty good!  I was still having some mood issues from the clomid, so I ended up changing the bet to "winner gets to choose what they want to do on Friday night"...and I chose to sit on the couch and veg :)

Saturday we had people over for game night.  I had one small glass of wine and then munched on peppers and hummus.  YUM!  I was so relieved that I managed to not screw up majorly and I didn't feel deprived. 

My chart from our nerdy spreadsheet...

Competition!

My lovely, nerdy husband and I are in this together.  He made a spreadsheet to track our weight loss, since we both like graphs and charts and such ;)  (Did I mention that I'm a nerd too?) 
Anways..to make it interesting, we decided that whoever has the biggest percentage of weight loss, overall, each Friday morning, gets to pick the movie we watch that night. 
 
I won this week, down 7.6 pounds total for a 4.51% weight loss :)  YAHOO!!

Guess who has to watch some sort of princess or syfy movie tonight!? 

It just hit me...

why the diet seems a little easier to handle this time around.  I think its because it is the first time we have dieted since having the little guy.  Our weekend plans no longer solely consist of going out and drinking, so its not nearly as painful to not have any alcohol :)  We only go out occasionally, so the occasional cheat night will be fine!  I don't feel so penned in...  Although I have had two nights of really wanting some carbs...so I'm glad phase one is almost over and I can add in some whole grains soon!!

Doh..it was a fluke

I weighed in again this morning and I was a pound up from yesterday...still a good loss, but apparently its time to start the less frequent weighing in, so that I don't have to deal with disappointment of seeing the scale move up (even though, overall, it was still a loss!!)

I had my first rough night last night with cravings.  I'm on clomid and apparently the "clomid crazies" have finally caught up with me.  Dealing with crazy amounts of anxiety, coupled with complete disinterest in my life.  not fun.  All I wanted was some lovely comfort food last night.  Luckily, I had a nice roast in the crock pot and made up some really yummy green beans sauteed with fresh ginger, garlic, soy, lemon and smidge of truvia.  They were really good! 

another 3 pounds?

I'm not sure how it happened, but I woke up this morning down 8 pounds total!  We'll see if the loss sticks around, but my pants sure fit a lot better today! 

one week down

And I'm down 4.8 pounds!  YAY!  I love the water weight factor of the SB diet!  I'm so much less puffy and bloated.  I've been doing really well with cravings so far too!

Adventures in food :)

I'm enjoying the culinary adventures that this diet leads me on.  Last night, I used some leftover kale from soup to make kale chips.  I burnt most of them (oops) but the ones I didn't were pretty yummy!  And the ones with just plain salt were better than the seasoned ones!  I'm definitely going to try them again sometime! 

The sriracha and ginger turkey meatballs were delish! 

oh...and these cocoa roast almonds by emer.ald nuts!  YUM!!! 

Tonight we are having baked falafel and tzatziki, my first time making either!  They both smelled fabulous while I was prepping them!  

Since its the cool thing to do...

I'm starting a blog to purge some feelings, celebrate successes, and whine about failures as I simultaneously try to lose weight and get pregnant with our second.  

Funny story...yesterday was my first day of doing the South Beach diet...it also happened to be 8dpo on our first clomid cycle of this go around.  I had a tiny bit of spotting, got myself all in a lather that it HAD to be implantation bleeding.  So this morning, I wake up, shuffle to the bathroom, pee in a cup, grab the test to put next to it and then I wipe.  Bright red blood.  Lots of it.  

Goddamnit!  

AF is here super early. 

So then, being a glutton for punishment, I jump on the scale.  Luckily, I was 2.5 pounds down... in one day.  The first weeks of SB are so freaking awesome!  

I'm trying hard to find the silver lining in a BFN...and its working...mostly.  I have at least one more month to drop some weight and start pregnancy at a healthier place.