Well...I'm back.

Had an u/s in my 6th week and it wasn't a viable pg.  And to top it off, there was some odd, cystic looking tissue, so we had a big scare that it could have been a molar pregnancy, which would have delayed us being able to try again for 6-12 months and includes a risk of cancer.  I had a D&C on leap day and the results came back non-molar.  So...that was good at least.  ugh. 

I'm doing pretty well, just the occasional day where it smacks me in the face and I end up sobbing at my desk :(   But, I've been cleared to start TTC again and I actually got an unmedicated +OPK yesterday, so I guess we are officially back in the saddle! 

In the meantime, after a couple weeks of indulgence, I've been back on my diet.  I settled into 156 pretty solidly while I was pregnant, so that was a relief to not have a ton of weight to lose again.  on 3.14 I weighed 156.3, and this morning I weighed 152.7!  YAY! 

I haven't gotten back to C25K yet, we've been busy working on our attic to family room renovation (which is super exciting!), but I'm hoping to this weekend while I'm visiting my parents in Ohio.  It is nice and flat by their house, so running is much easier than the crazy hill that I live on! 

A few milestones ahead of me:

• 3 pounds and I will be in the 140's!  
• 8 pounds and I will be 145, which puts me in the "normal" bmi range!  This is a big one for me!!
• 13 pounds puts me in the 130's
• 18 pounds gets me to my new goal of 135

My former goal was 138, but while I was pregnant, I realized that even "decades" are huge numbers in my head...and my normal weight fluctuation is too big to have a goal that is only 2 pounds from the next decade up.  I am now aiming for 135 so that I have a more comfortable weight swing, but I am still close enough to one that it should help me stay focused when I reach maintenance.


I guess that's my update...sad...  and now I feel like I am in a race with myself to lose the weight as quickly as possible on the off chance that I get pregnant quickly again!